After had been sicked like a rag finally I’m back to normal!!
However, since my consciousness is back to (almost) normal,
I have to find something to worry about and I think it’s some kind of women’s unsolvable (and sentimental) issue……
Ok I accept that since I start my full time job, I hardly take care of my body as I always do.
Healthy body requires time and discipline
so……..life has no short cut, that’s what I heard!
once you begin to worry about one thing, there will come another
and this one is the most classic issue
and how much energy I’ve spend,
and how much weight I have gained since I start work,
and why it has to be me,
and how come everything turn to be in this way,
and why it shouldn’t be in another way,
until I can’t find any more questions to ask,
not because I don’t give a shit,
or resign on my life,
but because I just realize that
Human love to set questions on everything, it’s our nature.
but the problem is…… once we ask, we must fine “perfect” answers.
(and yes Perfectionist is one of my worst habit!)
we wish those eureka moments are somewhere out there
…..if we keep searching hard enough
Well……..Archimedes tried to find the greatest answers for mankind out there too
but he got his “eureka” from the simplest place in the world
………in the bathtub…….with himself
I think my life doesn’t relate to Archimedes or anything scientific,
but what I can see is that
I just love to complain & blame everything
and I feel so good that I can easily get away with it with millions of reasons
works, traffic, income, people, weather, food, this and that……..
Life is about you and how you connect to the world.
if you find problems, stop complain & do something
and if you can’t change the world……change your world then
and let’s face it…….your problems aren’t more important than others……believe me
while I was writing this journal, Etta james’s vinyl record played from my dad’s turntable.
I love her song and her deep voice always calm me down.
especially her day dreamer about love and life…….
it doesn’t mean I will have less works or lose weight instantly,
but at least I can smile upon on whatever is happening with me right now.